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01 February 2009

it's empty for a moment

haii ,

i may be smile and laugh but inside only GOD knows . I'm suffering with all the lousy stuff and i'm the only person who felt it . i may be disappointed or frustrated to someone but i'm the one who knows and no one cares . until one moment i can't stand it anymore , i cried . cry cry and cry . i think maybe it's my fault . maybe i'm the one who makes people change and try to be away from me or maybe i'm not the perfect friend for them or i'm not good enough . i tried very hard to forget about it but more i try the more i hurt . i really like when i'm surrounded by good friends or true friends all the time because i can forget those sadness . even 5 minutes , i'll feel realase . sometimes i feel so jealous when i see some of my friends got a true friends . i'm not saying that i don't have one , i have but the one i love the most who turn me into this situation . i really don't like to be this emotional but i have to . so that , people will know i have a heart to take care and the sadness will be a bit remove from this clumsy life .

that's why i said , i'm so desperate to have new friends because i'm sick of the fake , plastic , hurting and sad life ! i thought maybe one day , the new friends will give me new experession about life . i found one but i don't know . i'm afraid , i'll be one who make that person hurt .
my life is complecated right ? well , now u know the real life of mine . not wonderful like u thought .

sekian ,
rabiiehmzh

5 comments:

Zuliana Eusoff said...

i understand you rabie.

Safinah Rashid said...

abie. if abie rase down or anything, abie bleh bgtaw kak ina. heh. been there done that. xpela, setiap benda ade hikmahnye kann? saba yeh adik :)

irwan said...

dont worry rabie :D
saya ada cewaaahhh
adik aku yg comel ni terharu baca ayat kau ni.
mcm ni muka dia
(';

Anonymous said...

what happen niiii?

Nur Rabiatul Addhawiyah bt Hamzah said...

AWW , thanks kalian . tak pek lah , tak nak susah kan kalian . plus , saya dah luah dah kat orang . and sekarang , saya dah okay .

kak ina : yeap ! ada hikmah . and dah nampak pun (; <3

epul : cita kat kau ? memang tak selesai masalah aku . HEEE :D wahh , adik kau . sangat hebat lah . ni yang makin syng ni . HAHA .

atin : tiada pe lah awak . ari tu ingat nak cita . tp cam tidak mengapa lah . dah luah kat rauf dah pun . sayang kau bengkak <3